What the hell?

So yesterday during my lunchbreak i am non-chalantly browsing the internet and decide i better check the balances on our checking accounts. Surprisingly (or not), i discover that my husband’s business account is overdrawn and mine will be because hubby hadn’t switched the funds yet. Argh! I’m pissed because 1. he didn’t pay any attention to the balance in his account (again!) and overspent and 2. he didn’t switch the funds over to cover the payment to our credit counseling service like he promised he would. Not to mention i reminded him about it periodically throughout the day.

So now it’s like 3:45, the bank closes at 4:00, and i go into a meeting at work. Apparently hubby decided to go to the bank at the 11th hour to take care of these issues and didn’t take any info with him, like, say, the account numbers. (*?!?*) So i get back to my office at, like, 3:57 and i’m in a hurry cuz i want to get out of work on time and i see there are 2 voicemails on my cell phone and hubby waiting on line 2. Seriously?! He was in a panic because the bank was closing and i wouldn’t answer my cell phone to give him the information he needed to fix the f*!k up he created in the first place. He’s yelling and cussing at me. Seriously? I don’t need that crap.

So, once again, i’m left to pick up the mess. I have to call the credit counseling service and reschedule the payment. I have to pay the $34 NSF fee cuz he didn’t do his job. I have to call all of our creditors (yes, all 9) and tell them the payment will be a few days late. I have to figure out what he did to overspend and fix that mess.

Then, i come into work this morning and find out New Girl has taken a week vacation. Did i mention we just hired her 3 weeks ago? So, once again, i am the one who must cover her responsibilities that i just handed off to her. I haven’t had a day off in almost a year and New Girl who, by the way, is making way more than me is off for a week. (*?!?*) Don’t worry, i’ll be here to pick up the pieces while she’s gone.

It’s what i do.


new wheels

There’s a lot of catching up i need to do. Let’s start with the exciting stuff!! About 2 or so weeks ago, hubby dragged me to the car dealer. I’ll come right out and admit that i hate shopping for vehicles. Even more so i hate spending money. Especially money i don’t really have in the first place. However, because i strive to be the obedient wife, i spent the better half of my Saturday driving around and drooling.

Occasionally, hubby gets a bug up his ass and decides that we need to replace a truck or whatever. He’ll go through all the trouble of getting an appraisal, talking to different dealers, researching who makes the toughest, meanest, most reliable tonka truck, and then nothing ever happens. One night we were out with our friends and he announces that i need a vehicle and he’s going shopping this weekend. Remember that i turned in my lease last June and have been driving whatever has been available at our house.

I protested his idea, for all the reasons above, but he persisted. So, off we go. In my mind, there was absolutely no way we were purchasing anything. I was just a passenger in his quest. Well, wasn’t i surprised (and excited) come Saturday night! We pulled into the car dealer and the local radio station has a van parked there doing a promotion. Upon closer investigation, we discovered that the dealership was having a huge blowout sale on their used vehicles. Hmmmmmm……… Hubby had a new car in mind, i wanted to spend as little as possible. I convinced him to “just drive through” and see what they had in the used car section. We came across an SUV that i was really impressed with and took it for a test drive. I thought to myself, well, this is affordable. It’s not the best thing in the world, but it will do. Apparently hubby wasn’t really impressed because after the test drive he headed to the new car section. After finding a few we liked, talked to the salesman and discovered that they were out of our price range. Let’s just drive through the used section again, i said. See if we missed something.

So, we drive through again, and there it sat. The perfect SUV. It was beautiful. I think there was even a ray of sunshine glimmering of the chrome like those crazy special effects. He stopped and i jumped out to investigate. It was perfect. Not too many miles, a few years old, leather seats, every option you could think of. And with the blowout deal, it was in my price range. Thinking it was too good to be true, we went back to talk to the salesman. It was definately available would you like to take it for a test drive? Would I?!!?!??! We jumped in and took it around the block. The V8 purred like a kitten. It was a perfect fit. I was in love.

We had to work some magic to get the financing, but it’s ours. In just 5 years, i will have a vehicle with no payments. It will be mine. I won’t have to turn it in and walk away. It’s all mine! I can leave my sunglasses inside without fear of driving a different vehicle the next day. I’m so happy!!


Yeah, that’s me

Yeah, that’s me.

The girl for whom whispered snickers and muffled whispers are meant.

The girl who puts in the most hours, worry, and sweat and is constantly passed over for promotion or raise.

That pretty girl in high school who everyone wanted to be. To whom everything came so easily and naturally. The girl who didn’t keep up the momentum after graduation.

The fat girl in the office who everyone comes to for answers, yet lacks the confidence to broaden her horizons.

The girl who worked so hard to create the perfect life for new life, and yet cannot conceive.

The girl who married the perfect man, and yet lets him down time and again.

Yeah, that’s me.