It’s been a day or two since my last post and things have been going pretty good. I’m almost to the point where all of my bills are current and have made payment arrangements on some loose ends. Things were starting to look pretty good.
Then, i got a call on Friday from the owner. Unfortunately, due to cutbacks at their other companies, all employees are being cut back to 60%. That means working 3 days a week, and only getting 60% of your paycheck. Oy.
Ya know what though. I’m not upset. Really. I wonder if maybe this is just God’s way of pushing me out the door. Maybe this is not where i’m supposed to be in life. I stayed here all these years because it was “comfortable”. I’m good at my job, and until recently, had good medical coverage for me and my hubby. I didn’t have good size paychecks, but it was security. Now, we are covered under our own insurance and my pay is super tiny. I realize this really sounds stupid. Jobs are impossible to find in this economy. Trust me – I’ve been looking.
I don’t know where my path leads, but i trust that there is a path for me. I came across this story today, and it inspired me. Perhaps the lesson in all i’ve been through is to just let it go. I’ve been holding on to worry and doubt and insecurity so tightly that i haven’t accomplished a thing. I weigh just as much, I haven’t conceived any babies, and my work situation is now worse. Time for me to set down the glass and start focusing on what’s really important…
A professor began his class by holding up a glass with some water in it. He held it up for all to see and asked the students, ‘How much do you think this glass weighs?’…. ’50 gms!’ …. ‘100 gms!’ ……’125 gms’ ……the students answered.
‘I really don’t know unless I weigh it,’ said the professor, ‘but, my question is: What would happen if I held it up like this for a few minutes?’ ”Nothing’ the students said.
‘Ok what would happen if I held it up like this for an hour?’ the professor asked. ‘Your arm would begin to ache said one of the students. ‘You’re right, now what would happen if I held it for a day?’
‘’Your arm could go numb, you might have severe muscle stress and paralysis and have to go to hospital for sure!’ ventured another student. All the students laughed.
‘Very good. But during all this, did the weight of the glass change?’ asked the professor. ‘No’ , said the students in one voice!
‘Then what caused the arm ache and the muscle stress?’ The students were puzzled .’Put the glass down!’ said one of the students.
‘Exactly!’ said the professor.’ Life’s problems are something like this. Hold it for a few minutes in your head and they seem OK. Think of them for a long time and they begin to ache. Hold it even longer and they begin to paralyze you. You will not be able to do anything.’